Let's make a run tonight.

The weekend was screwed. My temper went overboard with one of his so called "JOKE". Stupid joke to me though, because I don't see any joke in whatever he did, and I totally saw it with my own eyes. First thought to my mind was "F***!" and yes, I texted that thought of mine to him. We were screwed, like totally.

Anyways, I managed to think of a solution that would let me be able to attend the staff party last night. Though the idea wasn't very good, had to do a little white lie to my mom, I decided to take the risk. Felt bad about it but it was worth all the risk. And thankies to Izzabelle, owe you big time! (:

Went to work in the morning at Bakerzin, then evening at Fish&Co. As much as possible, I tried not to perspire myself. I didn't want to smell bad and feel sticky during the party because I wouldn't have any chance to freshen myself up. At work, I couldn't concentrate too. Surprisingly, Fishy was busy even though it was a Monday. But my mind was somewhere else instead of work. Was so busy with my handphone during work. Busy texting and at the same time arguing with him. He threatened me if I made it to the party, I'm in deep shit. To myself, I'm like "Whatever". Asked him if he wanted to fetch me somewhere, he didn't want to. Oh well, too bad I got myself such a boyfriend. Met Wen Jing outside The Arena, and he is such a darling. ((: Infact he was my date for that night. Haha.

The night went on, did not take any notice of him. Tried to enjoy the company of others as much as possible. (: When the night was about to end, somehow, he and I got together again. But after last night, we're still arguing about what happened last weekend. Tsk tsk.

Theme: Red Carpet.

Location: The Arena.

love parin kita, pero please, don't take advantage of me. :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!

Date / Time : Friday, July 17, 2009 / 6:23 PM

19 months, full of everything!

Though we've been aruging quite a lot in the past, we;ve got many good memories together too, and that is why OUR love natures from there. (: 19 months of everything, I admit sometimes I do feel tired, felt like I really needed to give him up because I'm straining all my energy just to feel pleased when I know it won't be that easy. But I am glad that tired feeling didn't really last. And after all, I realised he's the only person among every guys I've been involved with can actually put up with my temper. Hehe :D Happy 19 months baby!

And secondly, I'm totally leaving my blog to rot already. Do not intend to but I'm been so busy with work. Everyday working except on Sundays and Love's off day. Totally busted with "No More Energy!". Tsk tsk.

Found a new job last Wednesday. Love totally pushed me to look for another job. He's like "baby since you're not schooling now, you should use the time to make more money so you won't be broke all the time!". Wth. I kept saying "okay, I'll find one", well I'm just saying and not really doing it because I thought he might not insist already, totally wrong. On his off last Wednesdy, he accompanied me to Jurong point to hunt for a job. He's pretty much more anxious about me getting a job than I am. So yea, finally found one. At Bakerzin, another cafe cum restaurant. I'm totally hooked to the food industry. Hehe :D Interview went well, Love was happy I was accepted. But I wasn't really prepared. Then on the 13th July, first day at Bakerzin. Hhmm. But I'm not quitting fishy just yet. Or maybe never for now. I'll still go back there to work once in awhile. (: Can't bear to leave my dearest fishes, especially Nydiah2. Hahaha.

Staff party is next week, July 27. Love and I planned to go together. (: Theme: Red Carpet.

Date / Time : Thursday, July 02, 2009 / 9:14 AM

I Want, I Need, I Love You

Love and I... We're definitely not okay yet. But whatever it is, he is still my love. I guess clarifying to him that I do not want to continue the relationship (out of hurt and anger, that's why I told him that) has put him back on track. Maybe, just maybe he's trying to make things right... but in text messages. I mentioned I needed someone who takes effort to win us back, but not only in text messages. Oh well.... I just hope that's not what he thinks of "putting in effort".

Sometimes when my mom tells me stories about how my dad courted her with respect and sincerity, I just kept telling to myself "I wish my boyfriend takes after my dad". Haaay. Too bad, you don't always get what you wished for.

In anyways, we made plans to catch Transformers Revenge of The Fallen tomorrow. It's his day off, and hopefully things will turn out well. *fingers crossed*

Date / Time : Tuesday, June 30, 2009 / 10:41 AM

Bull Shit!

Honestly, I totally believe that if I had not text him last Thursday, we wouldn't even be in contact right now. Why why why??? Imagine for 1 week, nothing from him and when I finally questioned him why he wasn't bothered to contact me at all, he said "I was going to contact you but you texted me first". First thing that came to my mind was "Bull Shit". Everything he says now are crap. He's been saying the same crappy things since the beginning, but nothing came out of that crap other than lies and empty promises. 1 week of not clearing things out was way too long and too much for me, but he probably thinks it's still okay. Clearly he was waiting for me to make the move, and hell yea I did but I'll never apologise for what causes us this argument. Infact, the problem now is not about what happened that day at work, it's about the relationship. Get it?! It's the freaking relationship! Ugh.

Now I'm mad. I'm getting angry thinking about all his excuses and crap. Why am I even blogging about it? Ugh ugh ugh!

of all guys i've met, you're the most ignorant of all. of all guys i dated, none of them treated me the way you do. i'm willing to stay, but i'm so freaking tired. really.

Date / Time : Thursday, June 25, 2009 / 9:23 PM

1 week went by...

First of all, RIP to Michael Jackson. I'm not a big fan of him singing, but I so loved his dance moves. What a waste, efforts for his comback concert... no words that I can think of to describe. And his young children, I hope they're in good hands.

1 week went by and we still have not talk, neither text. I'm crushed inside :( which boyfriend ever ignores his girlfriend whom he claimed he loved so much? It's not that I didn't want to make the move to look for him or apologise, but I have been doing that ever since.... ever since, I don't even remember when. Am I suppose to bear more of his ignorance? I do not know. Friends have been advising me to give him up, but still, I'm hoping he'll stick to his promises... Promises that he promised me. I'll prolly just wait... wait and see. but the more i wait, the more i get hurt.

to love, sorry i've used a mean word to tell you off at my last entry... but i hope, still hoping that you will realised that our relationship is falling apart.

On the brighter note, I went shopping spree last Sunday with my darlings; Kamila, Isabelle and my fashionista wannabe brother :D Went to town after morning service, and I was a happy girl. I wasn't even thinking about him because my mind was totally focused on shopping. Hehe :D Who can ever resist right? I enjoyed every minute of it ((: Bought a bag from Charles &Keith, a top from Hula &Co. and a pair of high heel peep toes shoe from Pretty Fit. The only part I did not enjoy was when I checked my bank account. Ugh. I so need to start saving again. But still, thanks to the three people. You guys brighten up my day (:

i can be happy without having to think about troubles at all.

Date / Time : Wednesday, June 24, 2009 / 11:45 PM

No mood, no updates.

I know lah, I'm like so lazy to update my blog these days. And also due to some boyfriend/girlfriend arguments, I'm just totally out of mood. I'll be back soon to update about the recent happenings in my life. So wait up okay?! (:

You sucked because I hate it when your FCUKing ego is heavier then your balls. I'm tired of apologising even though when I'm not at fault, you know that.